November 21, 2017: What’s good for them will often terrify you

Things don’t necessarily go as well as all of this below, often, anyhow– but there are moments that remind me just how hard Mom is working all day every day to try and hold on to whatever she can. She is not giving up, and moments below make that clear. The hardest part of helping… Continue reading November 21, 2017: What’s good for them will often terrify you

July 25, 2017: Mom scares me by being normal

Much behind the piano, the second biggest improvement in our home has been me getting motivated enough to reclaim mom’s garden for her, and now myself. When I lived here without mom a few years ago (and I was living with a partner at the time), I managed to get the garden half decent, growing… Continue reading July 25, 2017: Mom scares me by being normal

July 14, 2017: Two years sober and smokeless

Nothing scared me more than failure when I decided to make this work. Nothing seemed a more sure fire recipe for disaster than on again, off again drinking problems mixed with the emotional minefield that is this process. I made it more than a month when Mom first moved home, but foolishly decided to have… Continue reading July 14, 2017: Two years sober and smokeless

June 30, 2017: Thoughts while dropping mom off for a few days respite

Mom has a lovely way of saying things that make a huge difference in my feeling useful, and dropping them in times and places that make everything easier. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes it’s possible to make it a lot harder on me, and she accidentally does this as well… but when she helps by… Continue reading June 30, 2017: Thoughts while dropping mom off for a few days respite

June 6, 2017: I get a visit from the ghost of my grandmother

Mom has skill and love for the piano that couldn’t have come by her more honestly. Her mother taught her at an early age, and given her memories are stronger the older they are, her piano lessons are seemingly as fresh in her mind as playing the piano itself. I had a little moment where… Continue reading June 6, 2017: I get a visit from the ghost of my grandmother

February 23, 2017: Please stop talking past my mother

Mom, as par for the course she is currently on, does not converse easily very often. As a result, even I find myself dealing with her much more poorly in the company of other people. I think it is fair to say her ‘care’ from myself is at its lowest when I am around others… Continue reading February 23, 2017: Please stop talking past my mother